It has been a month since I started working. Having myself at home for almost 2 years makes it really very hard for me to adjust to my work environment and my schedule. Working again makes me a lot more skinnier than ever. I can feel my bones when I touch myself, not the usual skin, meat then bones feeling. Call me the Skinny mommy. Well, my pals at work actually envy me for having to maintain my figure even if I have 3 kids. Well, what they don't know is that my secret to staying slim is....(ooops! that's why it's a secret) Huh?! Yet, I force myself to adjust and eat as much as I can. Getting sick is not even on my list. Being absent at work is not even close to what I want to do. 1 day of absent would ruin my budget and plus, I would miss a lot. But, what can you say, I love my job. Though I know that I'm overwhelmed with mixed emotions...I don't even know what I'm feeling each day I wake up. All I know is, I have to work and I want to prove myself something.
That is, I was made by God to do something more for myself, my family and the world.
Two paydays has passed and this just proves that I am doing well. Coping with something that is actually hard but, challenging for me.
I miss staying at home and being able to spend my whole day with my family. Still, I have to face the fact that life is getting harder each day. Our economy is not rising, so we don't have to be part of those people who would prefer to indulge themselves on to things that aren't really important.
Kudos to people who have appreciation to small things. Those are the ones who excel and get to get what they want. No matter how long it takes...

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Working from 5am - 1pm shift is kinda okay. It's the part where I have to wake up everyday at 2am is the hard part. Going to the office is also one factor. There are few buses passing through our vicinity. Tough luck if a bus comes ...yet, I still have to wait at least 15 - 45 minutes for the bus to get full. Phew! I guess didn't have any choice. Anyway, that's life. We all gotta work to earn more money. The fact that the prices of almost everything went up. We have to consider practicing not to be dismayed easily by the things that make our lives hard. These are just trials and tasks for us. We also have to do our fair share of good deeds in this world.

Working is not hard. It's the process of going to work that really bothers all of us. We may try to complain to alot of things, still, we can't do anything. Jumping from one company to another is not actually the best solution for us. We just have to try accepting the fact that we should be thankful that we have a job. Not all of us have that opportunity, don't you think so? Anyway, appreciate small things that come your way...and everything will follow.

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It was yesterday during our training class when I asked this question. We had this assessments where we have to write a question on a piece of paper which we have to fold then, one by one, we will pick a question. It was easy for me to think of a question. Maybe because these are the things I think about.

So, if I was the one given a chance to go back in time? when and why?

I should say, I want to go back to the time when I was about to go to College. I would've tried harder to make my dreams and goals come true. I regret entering a relationship while studying. Have I thought of becoming serious in all aspect. May be things would have been better for everyone. Not just for me. Though my life right now is somewhat okay. But, there are things in life I would want to change in case there was such a thing as going back in time.

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It may be awful to think of death when we're still healthy, alive and kickin'. But, sometimes we could not stop ourselves from thinking of the things we wanna accomplish or do before death comes to us. I was in the car last night when this struck me. I was with my husband at the back seat. While my brother is driving with his girlfriend who is sitting beside him. Watching how fast the wind was blowing, just makes me get the thought of how fast time flies too. Though there are things that is impossible to achieve. yet, we still wonder what if. There are things that are possible but the question is, how can we achieve it before death.

So I thought, maybe if I could just:

1. Win the lottery. Things I would do with the money:
a. donate to charity.
b. buy a house / car
c. invest on educational plans for my children. Open bank accounts for each of them.
d. give my parents, in-laws, siblings a part of my blessings.

Lastly, and the most important of all...

I want to get married again. I mean, I want to have the grandest church wedding ever. Well, not too grand. But, grand enough for me to feel that ahhh feeling. I love my husband so much that I want to have this moment with him. I want see him waiting for me in the alter while I walk through the aisle. I want our marriage to be blessed by the Lord before I go to the heavens.

2. I want to go back to school and earn a degree.

3. If I could get a chance to take a glimpse of the future. I just want to see what my
children will become and my husband will do.

4. I want to experience doing a photo shoot for a very popular magazine.

5. Learn how to play the guitar.

6. Sing beautifully in front of a crowd without getting nervous.

hmm...I think I forgot some .... I guess there's not really many of them.

Anyway, have you thought of what you wanna to do in case?.....

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It was when I was studying in Singapore. I remember being brought to the principals office. I think it was during my nursery days. Hahaha!!! Too young for a rebel. Anyway, I have this classmate who torment most of the kids in my class. He is a big fat boy who would go around making children cry. He would often get my classmates food. Sometimes he would just push them or hurt them in all sorts of ways. Having seen him being such a pain in our class. I told myself that if he does those mean things to me, I'd probably don't know what to do. You see, he's a lot bigger than I am. Plus, he is a boy.

One recess time, that same bully approached me and was trying to see if he can make me cry. I'm not sure what happened. But I just snapped! I took his shirt and pulled it close to me. I started saying things to him. (I just can't remember what) Until, I made him cry. Imagine a small little girl making a gigantic kid cry and ran like a little piglet. I felt like a superhero. Kids started to cheer for me. I guess they were happy that he met his match at last. The commotion gave attention to the teachers. I was the main star of that event. Instead of the bully being brought to the principals office, it was me. The principal asked my teacher to call my parents. This made me really scared. Later on, my parents came and started talking to the teachers and the principal. I was excused in class for what happened. The principal shook hands with my parents and then, we left.

I was waiting for my parents reaction. But, I never expected to see my parents laugh instead of getting mad after being sent to the principals office. They explained that there are certain things that is okey to them. And there are bad things I should not repeat. The good part was that they found out that I can defend myself even though, I'm this small. I can carry myself through rough times. But, when it comes to revenge. It's a no-no to them. I was taught that if someone hurts you, don't seek revenge. It's okay to speak to them in a proper manner. But, doing the same thing will not do anything good. It will just create a never ending war.

Forgive while its early. If the person doesn't change, then just do the right thing. Until that person realizes that you are not affected by everything he does to you. Therefore, he is just wasting his time on you. You should feel blessed that someone is trying to waste his time on you. Just because he doesn't have anything best to do for himself. Be glad...just stay cool. Leave all the grudges to him. All the joy to you !!!

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Hmm..I'm not sure how you came up with asking me this question? I'm not sure if I'm gonna feel offended or you just don't know how to feel thankful of simple the things people show their appreciation about you or your work. Are you married? Are you single? Are u bitter about something?... I think, you need someone who could teach you the meaning of Appreciation and Happiness. I’m sorry for the tagging you. I think, I gave it to the wrong person. Advice: Read the Bible.

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Haven't had much to say this past few days. The only time that this thought sinked in was when I was doing my make up. Looking through all the stuff on my dresser, I just realized something. My husband may not be that romantic type of a guy who would do reservations in a romantic restaurant. He may not be the type who would give me bouquet of flowers or a box of chocolate for Valentines. But, I do get what I want even though there is no special occasion.

Some women would envy others when they see them holding the usual flower - chocolate thingys. They just don't realize or look more closely of the things their loved ones do for them everyday. I cannot say everyone is lucky enough to receive the same treatment I get from my hubby. But the thought of my husband giving me the freedom to buy anything from the grocery. It's just like, he's saying, don't starve yourself! When we're out he would never fail to ask me if I want to buy anything. Because you see, I don't ask my husband to buy me this and buy me that. Maybe, that is why he is so thankful that I'm not a spender. So, he's so generous when it comes to shopping.

You see, he's more of a practical person. Buy what you need and buy something that you think you haven't had for awhile. Do you get what I mean? He wants me to buy something that would last. Something that is of use. Something that I would really enjoy. Even for sometime, it may not be permanent. As long as, it will not only last for 2 days. That's why he took me to this store where you can buy all sorts of make up. Well, yes I did bought some make up. To tell you the truth, he was right. I felt happier to see something which he gave . At least, it reminds me of him every time I use them.

So, if you're a lady. Be appreciative enough to say thank you to your loved one. Even if you don't get flowers or chocolates during valentines. We have different kids of love language. It's up to us how to understand our partners way of showing his love. Communicate with him. Let him know how you feel. I don't want to be a hypocrite to say that I don't want to receive flowers on valentines or treated extra special on this day. it's just that, I don't want to expect too much from him because he's not expecting too much from me too. And also, I can see that he sees to it that I am well provided in every aspect.

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One day a ten-year-old boy went to an ice cream shop, sat at a table and asked the waitress. How much is an ice cream cone? She said,” Seventy-five cents”. The boy started counting the coins he had in his hand. Then he asked how much a small cup of ice cream was. The waitress impatiently, annoyingly replied, Sixty-five cents. The boy said,” I would like a small ice cream please”.

After eating his ice cream, he paid for the ice cream then left. When the waitress came back to pick up the empty plate, she was surprised and felt bad. Underneath were ten one-cent coins as tip.

The little boy had consideration for the impatient, annoyed waitress before ordering his ice cream. He has thought for her too before himself.

Do we consider others?

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I would like to thank Mr. Arun Kumar for this story. It has inspired me to be more conscious on how i will react towards people's reactions and response. I hope you've learned something too.

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